Me

A short time after last night's "panic" attack where I worried Jeff was cheating or something, this little voice inside of me finally spoke up.

Why would you want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you?

Hmm.

Jeff says he wants to be with me. He's working on himself in his program.

I'm just not happy....

I feel like he should KNOW how he feels about me by now. I feel like he should show me how he feels.

And hey, if he wants to screw around then I feel like he should do it....(and say goodbye to me).

I DON'T want to be with anyone who doesn't want to be with me.

I love Jeff. Always have. Probably always will. It doesn't me he loves me - or even if he does, that he can love me the way that I need to be loved. It doesn't mean I have to be with him.

Being in a relationship with an emotionally unavailable man is not much better than being alone - it just adds more headaches.

I have some thinking to do. He does too, but that's for HIM to figure out.

At this point, I think he's losing me.